umm yeah.update

wow its been a hot sec since ive been on here...

well lets update....

Me and Army are doing great :)..I was so happy to spend this past christmas wit him..he was only here for 2 weeks but it seem like longer..We have grown to know each other a lot better and we are much closer..I miss him soooooooo much...we still talk everyday and all night...I say right now that I do love him..but also..I see that we are in that infatuation stage...you know what i mean..in the beginning of a relationship where you are so happy to be together that things might be going so fast you might not even notice..we were moving that fast for a hot sec before i caught it and brought it to his attention...i took him a little longer to understand how I felt about it but he understands now..love is blind my friends....we are however doing really good..despite the fact that we are not around each other..which brings me to another point..I am being the most faithful that i have ever been in a relationship..this guy must be really special ..(he is though :) .) ...most people try to avoid long distance relationships because they figure that it wont work..well this is how i see it...relationships work the way you want them to..come on you know way before you hooked up that u arent ready for long distance..why even put your self and who ever u are dating through that....and if you do give it a try that means that you are saying " I will be faithful just as you were here"..If you are a dog..DONT DATE LONG DISTANCE IDIOT..SHYT DONT DATE AT ALL!.because if you run in to a broad like me she gon kick ya azz or get ur azz back and best believe pay back is a bytch...

AAAAANNNNNYYY WHOOOO.................

Army is special..he is not just a boyfriend he is a friend...he isnt just a guy i can cuddle and kiss with but i can be a "smart ass" and fight with him too and I dont have to worry about nobody being mad..This might be it for me...I hate to say that so early..its like taboo...but seriously i can feel it..I dont just say that about anybody..and you know what.....he feels tha same way...its so refreshing to date someone who feels the same way or more about you the way you do him..I pray that he will be my first last kiss......i know I know sappy right? lol....but Im just being real..I am In a place where I wasnt sure if I could reach and I dont want it to ever change..and I love the way he treats me..he treats me like he is giving me the world and if i want the stars i can have that too..he treats me like a WOMAN should be treated by a real MAN...this is the real deal and its amazing that he treats me this well because he has been hurt by stupid bitchez in the past..I mean he has really be through wit this one hoe named........stop.....umm imma call her norcross lol(inside joke..you'll figure it out).....long story short she got him in some real red and blue flashin lights(if u get my drift) shyt about something that he didnt even do...she mainly is one of the girls that thinks that they can run people and take advantage of the person she is wit... also she thinks she is hard......what!?!?!?!...where theey do that at?!?!?!......you know how when people get buck and start talkin bout where they from..weeeellll this dumb bitch talk about she from some damn NORCROSS!?!?!? LOL!!!! what THE F-you-see-kay LOL..for those that doesnt know GA..what kind of :hood" is that you asked??well if u must know ITS NOT A HOOD!!...norcross is mainly where the white people and people that at snobby live...i pray that if we ever jus so happen to meet she doesnt jump stupid..I will wipe the floor wit her triflin ass..and Im from the eastside zone 6...now thats my hood..I reside at the mound(stone mountain) but raise in the wood(glenwood)..any way let me get out of my hood state

>>now back to ur regularly scheduled blog by Whitney.


Sorry I had to go ham for a sec..........but im back.lol..........

I really pray that Army stays the way he is and only change for the better. but thats an update so far and thats only january and december..who knooows what februray hold....till next time

I holla

Ps Army comes back home March 10 for good :D!!!!!

~Starr*

~ :( Many EmOtioNs :)~

well...i am mainly feeling two different emotions at the time..
For two different reasons...

Last blog I told you guys mt great grandmother died...

her wait was last friday.....she looked so beautiful and peaceful...she had this smile that said im doing great...One thing that I will never forget about my great grandma was that I never seen her not smiling...everytime i went there she would have this big smile on her face and say "Hey baby..I missed you.." then she would kiss my cheek..and once you finish visiting her for the day she would always say "come back and see me baby"...She always had a peaceful friendliness about her...she didnt come out of her home often but she love company.... She started coughing really bad about 3 weeks ago and it seem to get worst...she was in and out of the hospital all 3 of those weeks...On the Week of her death my aunt and cousin(who is her paster) said they visited her..my cousin said right before she took her last breath that friday night/saturday morning she told him to pray..as he was praying God called her home..thenight before she was tellin my aunt that she was ready to go home and she will
be fine....I just hurt so much inside that I didnt get a chance to see her before she passed...I had a chance but I just keep procastinating..I hate to see people while they are on there sick bed, it makes me nervous and sad....but i wish I could have seen her and its killing me...Like the saying goes

"never put off for tomorrow what you can do today".....

So if you are reading this tell everyone , your friends ,associate sand are family that you love them( and mean it with your heart)..dont wait until its to late........(pause...this made me cry as i was typing)......
R.I.P Bertha Sparks "Great-Grandma".......................................




huh..........


On another note.....

Me and "Army" are doing great...he came home saturday and we went out sunday..we went to Discover mills and jillians(which is in discover mills,its like dave and busters).....we had so much fun spending time together..I am so glad that he is home(for the little time that he is)....he makes me sooooo happy and he is more than just a boyfriend...he is a great friend. He makes me smile..he cares so much and i love that feeling of being genuinely loved.....Im glad that God lead me to him..This has to be the one...and I dont just date anyone so this is a break through...we've been talking for 4 1/2 months and it feels like we've known each other forever...i mean instant cupid...i just hope this doesnt back fire on me ( i have faith that it wont) once i get in to deep..im mean im already in deep cuz he got me lil sprung but its s good sprung..a comfortable sprung...i think i maybe fallin (the love bug) guys......but only time will tell....that was just and update so until next blog see ya........

~Starr*

let me tell ya.....

Beeeeeeeeeeepppp...this is a message from the headquarters of whitney..there is a new relationship in the mist of our blogness world..

in case you dont know whats goin on let me fill you in.....

well this week i have been doing alot of thinking about army and new york...here is what i got...new york is sweet and sexy and fun but we dont have a real connection..i mean new york is here in my face all the time and yet to make a effort to get to know me and make a move toward relationship status...i wasnt rushing the relationship thing but i mean if u tell someone u like them u should make a effort to kno all u can and prove how much u want to be with them...Army....ok well i known him for a good min now and we have been talkin just as long as ive known new york....he actually made a real connetion wit me...he was really patient with me in trying to get myself together for relationship..he wasnt just a guy that i was just talkin to..he actuallly is giving me friendship first and did all he can to show me how much he really cares(yeah i got him sprung lol)..wat gets me is the fact that i havent seen him in like a month or two(cus of the army) and i still like him alot..they say long distant relationships dont work..but i believe that if u put in some time for each other than it can be all the same..we talk eveyday......
so in case you still cant figure it out.....

ME and ARMY are together..oohhh yeah....(smile)....(thanks maya i did what u said and u were right)

He makes me happy...even from a distance...and he's coming home this weekend and i cant wait to see him....sooooooooo.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppp this has been a message from the headquarters of whitney...this was only the truth....now back to your regularly scheduled blog......

oooooook...

on a different tender note.......

my great grandmother (my mom's grandma, my grandma rose's mom) died saturday....it was really sad because I didnt get to see her while she was sick.....i know that she is in a better place and she is not in anymore pain...I am keeping God in my heart and peace in my mind.......
they want me and my sisters to sing at the funeral....idk kno if im up to it..but most likely we will...i dont know what we are gonna sing....*sigh*...but my family is holding up really good and in good spirits....


well over all...i am elated and sad at the same time but i will make it..wit the help of my friends and love ones...

til next blog...

~im out~

~Starr*

RIP GRANDMA BERTHA

Sooooo....

So ok..

Army(remember him for my past blog) got my head all messed up...

I talked to him last night and we had a real connection..It was so new to me. I never talked to someone like him. yesterday he was explain to me how he feels about me and what makes him like me so much. From my eyes to my hair. From my smile to my way of thinking..according to him he is already sprung..i think thats amazing and i havent even gave him any goodies( dont play u know what im talkin about).... I am liking this feelin but yet.....i am afraid....is that bad?? i like him and i know that he would do all he could for me and more, but i feel like as soon as i get a little more closer to him i want to run away( RETREAT!, ABORT MISSION!, RUN FOREST RUN!! you get my drift )...I want to give him that chance to get close and i guess over time i will but..will my tricky mind pull out the"he's just gonna be like any other nigga" card.....huuuhhh i dont kno.....also last night i had a situation where i was really upset and yes i did cry..he jus so happen to call me..and we talked about it and a lot of other things ...thats pretty much wat got me all messed up today...i think wat got me was...he cried with me. he said it tore him up to hear me cry...thats something special.right?..i dont know wat it is about Army..i cant shake it either.......
...what to do.....

OMG.........New York is textin me.....what to do about him.....its crazy cuz when im wit him it feels right and i get so shy around him..and he is so sweeet...its amazing how i have these encounters with these two..one minute me and New york have a mad connection and Army slips my mind cuz im blinded by New Yorks swag and charm....then Army comes around and does the same thing to me and New York becomes almost a figment of my imagination...

This is so hard....its so complicated....

then...I got this got damn nigga named......ok well... imma name him..umm...bug-a-boo..lol...
well shit his name speaks for its self.right so do i really have to go in to detail..lol....he bugs the shit out of me!!(ugh)..he like me and really
wants to be wit me..but i dont like him.plus i dont like needy ass niggas..always on my shit and smuthering me..and he is grimy cuz his boy was talkin to me first durnig the summer(not army or new york) and he hasnt told his boy he is try to spin game(which by the way sucks)..but it doesnt matter cuz i told his bo...what?..shit i dont want to be inbetween no drama cuz off some stoker ass bull...he is so annoying..and im was trying to be nice..but now.im goin ruthless..i usually am but i wasnt trying to hurt his feelings..gues what....i got ruthless and tell me why this needy ass nigga talking about some we can work through this...No the HELL we can not!~!..he is on some other shit...No Swag For Him.lol..O well i can't do any thing about that..i got othre things/people that i am more concerned about.. (wink)

Well i gotta get back to work..just wanted to fill you in on whats goin on..

PEACE

~Starr *

ps my crew is almost completely home..waiting on one more..Mr.Kearse(justin for those that dont know)

~ReUniOn!!!~

So I am excited....
for why??....
well im glad u ask......

My bestfriends also known as "the crew" better known as the "phat cow crew" is coming home this week...ok let me explain...
the phat cow crew consist of my bestest friends in the world,Walt P,Justin, James, and me..we are all really close..now i know wat ur thinking...but yes i am bestfriends with all these guys(and we never dated and dont plan on it).These guys are like my brother..shot...they are my brothers..we are all alike in many ways but different which keeps our friendship interesting.we came up wit that name a couple of years ago at my house.we are some sexy people and we love to eat.lol.....Walter is already home and i am so glad to see him,he came over yesterday.we had a lil discussion about my previous blog topic and he is a character..but walt imma keep wat u said in mind.Justin and James comes home tomorrow..hey im texting james right now..he says hi... but anyway...Its so great when everyone is home at the same time..we have so much fun..we go to our favorite spots which are cici's pizza, ihop,and buffalo wild wings..so many people want to be apart of our crew but its not that simple..oh but we did add a cow..her name is simone..she is cool but a little one the sad side..but we will change that...well i think im done for today.

holla

~Starr*

PS.Thanks Walt for introducing me to the blogging thing......cooliosis

A rock and a hard place

ok so this is my sitch.....

There are two guys in my life right now,as of the moment,that has my mind and feelings in a maze..lets call one of them ..ummm Army and the other one...New York (no relation to that damn new york chick on tv). Army is my age and is really sweet and smart almost like that guy that you know ur supposed to be dating (ladies i know u know what im talkin about), and New York is a couple of years older than me but he really cool and laid back. Ok, well i met theses guys around the same time this year and they both seem to be pretty cool. As time is moving on i started to develop feelings for both of them( i think you're starting to see where im goin with this) but any ways...I am at the point now where i really like both of them but i know i can only have one(unfortunately i cant have my cake and eat it to)..I dont know which one i should choose..when i look at the pro's and con's of being with both guys they seem to weigh out almost equally.. Army's pro's is that we are the same age and i know for a fact that he would treat me right and not hurt me but his con is that at the moment he is far away and i dont get to spend as much time with him( but he is coming back )..New Yorks pro's are he is understanding and kind hearted and i see him all the time but his con is he is older than me so it hard fort me to actually trust that he genuinly likes me..wait...is the problem really me and not them? am i making this more difficult than what it really is?? i mean am i wrong for my feelings to be like this for two different guys at the same time??..idk...I dont want to have one and then forget about the other...What i think i am afraid of is that i might make a mistake with the one i choose to be with and then it would be to late to go back to the other one....This is all a mess and i let it go this far...what to do.....its been so long since i actually like some one like the way i like these two( just my luck that they would both come in my life at the same time)...They are both great guys and i know i would be happy with either of them...im stuck inbetween and rock and a hard place...im just hoping that one day soon i find a crack in the hard place and i can bust through and finally make a desicion....the right desicion...

well till next time im out

~Starr*